hip flask at church service on Tuesday

Well it has been two days two long since I had the time to re-post and given that I am trying to develop some kind of a following that is too long.




I have been stuck between two worlds of late. It is the worst possible place for a person like me to have to live, yet I do it from time to time. I never wish to entertain my wanderlust or dream states. Nor do I wish to be too overly pragmatic either. I think a healthy of dose of both is a good thing and that balance should rule the way and the day for that matter. I have had a real problem with searching for God and at the same time have been full of disdain with the "Atheists" In my life as well. Their self serving manifest destiny and humanism "Uber Alles" mentality that they scream unyielding that "God" has no compassion or how could the woes of the world exist is insanity and purely, again self serving. "God" owes no man anything other then his existence if you will. On the other hand the fact is that I cannot abide any kind of religiosity either.







There is of course some good out there, for one Jainism or what is known as "मोरे इत Or Jain Dharma is one of the oldest religions in the world, was Gandhi's teacher in the way of pacifism that lead to such great change in India as well. But it is a mistake to think that though he himself was a pacifist that it was a peaceful world changing event, the conflict between Pakistan and India and the ongoing killing has never stopped since the English were forced out and he himself was killed and all a product of one form or another religiosity.







But Back again to the fact that I personally cannot live without the idea that there is something, greater then man or woman him/herself at work in the universe. I also think this is a basic human want and need. Is it good? Or helpful? I do not know, but one thing in my life is for sure, if there is a God then I am not it. That I cannot and do not run the show, not only in my day to day life, but even and perhaps more to the point in the protracted future dream of, ... I wish I had a life that I always seem to want and it is just .......... another day of harder work, more money, meeting the right people, being in the right place, getting that great break, OH! GOD! OH! GOD! When will it all happen as I want it to what are you doing about it and what do I need to do next to make sure you make it so?







My belief is NOTHING! I need to do nothing other then?







That in fact I can do the next right thing as is dictated by my own and my family's morals is a miracle that was not possible for me only a few years ago. That I can help as many other people in the world as is possible and not deny my own children their love. That I can be good honest and hopeful, loving kind and of service to others. But I cannot do it alone and I cannot do it with will power. So if things, good things do happen who then is to say what is cause and effect and what is perhaps a God of my own understanding that I can even talk about and share and therefor listen to you share about yours. Given your not trying to kill me for not believing in yours and it's rules or die to begin with.




That there are those who claim there is no evidence to prove a God could be, that there are no miracle's or that all things only happen for "mans" reason of rules and guides, and that perhaps we may not know now what those all are, but that we will, is their guiding mantra for science to avail it's self the real new godhead and only reason can be truth.




I heard such a man talk the other day. And he shook me a bit. He was not hateful or too full of judgement, spoke truthfully as well. Commented on somethings I believe as well about Religion in general.

Which is that there are some that are simply better and more progressive then others, that there are some based on ideas so archaic and wrong that we as a global population need to say so to those practicing them and tell them to catch up to the rest of the world. ?But who am I to say?


Tibetan Monks are in fact sexist perhaps not evil for being so, and much kinder then lets say Catholics, but none the less they too like to keep their women at a state of only being able to be nuns and nothing more. Denying them many things then men have access to. And what the hell is this bullshit called "Honor Killing" That is just insanity. Nor do I like or dislike Islam but from what I have read of the Koran/Qur`an. The Book is mythological to a extreme matched only by the Bible and even more full of separatist hate and violence based actions that get you into heven then any other text of it's kind that I can think of, and to call it a work of love seems absurd.





There are extreme rules in a wide variety of texts and versions of many different religion's and in fact allmost all the fundamentalists are a danger to us all in my opinion. But to say with some liberal ass kiss that they are all equal and just in their own way, is just bullshit and worse harmful and untrue to a even worse extreme.